Lacquer and Color

Soon the lacquer will start to crack
Eden a far and forgotten dream
Love and hope of all the things are
Fragile and fracture under stress
Even when the night comes and goes
She still stares out the window until
Tears course down their well-known tracks
Else someone catches the truth and lies
Else anyone guesses the fear and failure
Making up the face with cream and color

Vilify the harsh and empty threats
Stare at the mirror and banish all

Evil thoughts and angry words
Go forth my love and conquer all
Only then can the sun shine on you again

Rehashed Conversation

“Do you know how hard it is, to be surrounded by something? To hate it, detest it with every single fibre of your being but have to put up with it for the sake of someone else? 

And to see it, unfurl in front of you, a torrid path of destruction.

And yet, short of avoiding it, and hence avoiding the very people on a daily basis, and short of voicing it, you can’t do anything. 

So you start feeling left out.

And you get restless.

And if you look into the distance, it seems so rocky, and impossible.

And you have to compromise. On yourself or on the relationship. And on this, i cant compromise on myself.”

This really GivesMeHope

This really GivesMeHope

I realize that the last thing I have posted may be one of my more depressing tales to be shared.

The reason I decided to make it public was that I was on Six Billion Secrets (website, check it out), and most of the posts were from people considering or inflicting self-harm. It shook me, and it made me realize that they need support, and love, and hope.

Then need to be told that they are wonderful, and that they are not alone and that they will never be completely helpless. One of the websites that really makes me regain my faith in humanity is GMH- Gives me hope.

The posts and stories that the users put up on the page, make me feel at peace and make me feel positive about life. If anyone out there has a bad day, or is upset and miserable about something thing that happens just spend 10 minutes here before thinking about taking any drastic step or measure.

And I’m always here to talk.